Deja Vu or Preview ?

//Deja Vu or Preview ?

Deja Vu or Preview ?

This morning Ive been thinking about a vision I keep having. I’m holding an elderly persons hand,a woman I think. I see the thin pale skin with arthritic knuckles and veins of soft blue. Its day time, morning I think, because the lights all around us. Its a peaceful but bright light, signifying a new day. She is hanging on to me so I know she is still with me. I cant help but think it is a deja vu of my future. It is a moment that I will have, when I look back and say, wow, Ive been here before. It seems more like a preview of a deja vu.

There is sadness around but not for her or for me. Its from her loved ones. Then it goes away.  There are truly significant moments in our lives where we get confirmation and I feel like this is one of them. To me a deja vu is like a road sign in our life saying ,yep, this is the right way. You are back on track and please continue forward . It seems like its been a while since I have had a deja vu. Geez, is this the reminder to tell me to get back on track and catch up. That is what it feels like.

I watched a movie this morning called “Hereafter” with Matt Damon. Its a Clint Eastwood movie. It didn’t get much of a nod from the industry, but isn’t that the way it is . If its paranormal and it doesn’t scare the crap out of you then forget about discussing it or bring it to the forefront. There is a moment during the movie, when one of the characters is under water during the tsunami and she dies and comes back. I cant help but want to go back to the moment where I was under water and dead. I want to feel the feeling of weightlessness and no sense of time and material things.

However I find myself  trying not to get so wound up in what the moment was, but what it did for me. I found myself searching at one point, for answers, like everyone does who goes through this. I read books and found a group meeting of others who had gone through similar experiences. The head of this group asked me to speak about my experience. It was the first meeting that I had attended. I felt as if they were hovering, waiting for a different ending to a story that they had already read. The question that we all had in common at one time or another is…was that real?  Did it really happen or was it just my imagination.?

Well it really happened and no it wasn’t my imagination. It felt good to share with others and confirm what we all knew to be true. That this life isn’t the only life and that all around us is another realm that we can tap into. Although, there was a heaviness to some of the group members at the Near Death Association, that I couldn’t explain. I went for a second meeting and it was a repeat of the first. All of the same faces stuck in the same moment and I remember thinking to myself, I don’t want to be that . I wont get stuck in that moment of what happened questioning it over and over again. I will acknowledge it and give it the attention that it deserves every now and then. I am stepping forward  and trying to bring some attention to the reality of  life after life.

I would like to say, as many others have said before me, that there is more that exists and that we can have the near death experience with out floating on it to survive whats left of this life. I believe that its important to embrace and teach from what you know to be true from your own experiences.

There is a character in the movie that is a psychic, but he has not come to grips with is the idea of what he does, is of help to others. Having seen so many fakes in this world he doesn’t want to be responsible if he for some reason gives a message inaccurately. A door opened for him and he was able to help others but it was so over whelming that it was difficult to grasp.

So, I go back to the aged hand that I see myself holding. I believe that while holding that hand we can merge our energies and experiences to smooth way for her journey. I feel her smile and and see her letting go of me while reaching out to her loved ones on the other side. I am hoping in my heart the loved ones remaining are taking note there is no boundary there and that they will one day be reaching out for her when its their time to move on.

I will leave you with a quote from a Charles Frazier book called Cold Mountain, by Maddy the old goat woman “See, I think there’s a plan. There’s a design for each and every one of us. You look at nature. Bird flies somewhere picks up a seed shits a seed out and plant grows. Birds got a job, shits got a job seeds got a job. And you’ve got a job”

By | 2013-08-25T17:30:06+00:00 August 24th, 2013|Spiritual|3 Comments

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  1. Barbara September 13, 2013 at 3:27 pm - Reply

    I recently read a book called “Proof of Heaven”
    A very successful neuro surgeon got really sick with a bizarre form of meningitis.
    He was in a coma for some time.
    When he came back, he told his colleagues about it; they had the same reaction he had had when patients told him about their experiences. Not believing but humoring them anyway.
    It is an amazing story. I am forever changed by it.

    • Picasso Roberts September 13, 2013 at 6:44 pm - Reply

      I haven’t read the book yet but have heard of it. Its on my list of things to read for sure. It amazes me how people can choose to stick their heads in the sand. I am glad to see that his book changed your life in way that has made you more aware. Very cool.

  2. Rhonda September 21, 2013 at 7:36 pm - Reply

    when my son was 21 months old his airway closed after an easy operation. As they were about to cut a hole in his throat and insert a tube in hopes to keep him breathing, he took a breathe. Just like a baby coming out of the womb. About a few months later we were eating breakfast and I had on a Pj top with funny looking angles on it and my son says, “mommy I saw those.” I said, “I know I’ve worn this before it’s not new.” he said,”No mommy in the clouds, they were pretty like you.” I remember at that moment as the tears streaked down my face, how blessed we were and the Doctors words, “By the Grace of God he took a breathe.” Yes we knew how blessed we were. Knowing that his journey here on Earth is not over. Over that year other things surfaced, as he would see something that would trigger a memory, or deja vu for him. Still to this day he has a moment that triggers memories, or he will say I’ve been here before. Just like you, you were saved for a bigger reason.

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